8:09 a.m. - 2007-10-24
L Woods
It happened. Just floated out of my mouth without a thought. And to be honest, I wasn’t thinking it at all. But it happened. I saw the two couples looking at us…. shaking their head’s, remembering when they use to feel like we were feeling. Being together when it was new, exciting, fun….when you can’t wait to see one another again. Where your heart races when he looks at you with those beautiful eyes….and they just smiled looking straight into my eyes and nodded their head with happiness. And then they grabbed each other’s hands and smiled with one another. I saw it, I felt their connection and I felt ours...... and I felt so lucky. That I had this beautiful man sitting across from me, making me laugh, saying all of the things I have only dreamed of.
And as he told yet another funny story about something and as I turned and caught the couple watching us from across the room I said it. I love you….shit…I love how you are in a quick cover up. Thank God he didn’t hear me and he kept going on with his story and I felt scared. It just flowed out of my mouth...so easy, so free. It was if my world stopped at that moment and as I turned to look at him I felt it for the first time. I love him…. I love how I feel when I am with him. So maybe in time, if he ever feels that same way with me and I can tell him of this moment. My moment when I felt it for the first time. When time stood still, when I looked at him and wanted to cry because I was so happy. The moment that I will never forget – ever!
